(.!_!.) GoNe.... (.!_!.)

KhiN is GONE.....

(.!_!.) i LOST ! (.!_!.)

I LOST !!!!!!!!!!!!

(.!_!.) I'm the one (.!_!.)

hmmm.. another day past... still unable to tke everything bout sigh... so hurts .. so lonely ... getting weaker n weaker each day .. i noe alot of ppl cares for me ... but hai` .. sorry guys i let you all down .. i really cant hold myself up again ..i noe lean against God for strength throw everything to HIM everything will be done .. i noe ... but i jus couldnt throw all into it... the problem n thoughts jus permantly stuck in my heart n mind ... hai`~ so hurts ... so hurts .. i cry witout letting ppl noe .. i force myself nope to cry .. but jus cant help it .. tears kept wana come out ... gayne is rite .. everything tt happen .. i'm the one causes it... dun denial the facts... but think bout it .. guys honestly la.. i noe you all noe oso ... problems n trouble is all causes by my own hand ... n i get depressed over it ? damn shyt rite me ?? my attutide n the troubles n problems i causes i depressed n causing so many ppl worried for me ... today my dad call ms sim ... ms sim came to tok to me bout it .. i noe i can say tt i will endure n wont let it affect me .. but the facts is tt i cant help !! i dunno how much i can endure more ... jus too hurts for me .. wad am i gonna do ? hai`~ jus gonna keep my damn shyt mouth shut !! dun ever see me ever crap or being lame again .. neber ever again !! i jus gonna keep my mouth shut ?!! totally shut ! jus a heartless robot .. wit moodless is the best choice ba... stupid me .. useless me... why am i born ? why ?? my dad works so hard n brought me up .. but wad a "good" son i'm to him ? trying to be good to other .. i get wad ? nth but shyt ... well fated la ...jus hav to face it ! jus wish i wasnt born in this world... jus wish tt anytime from now where ever i walk .. jus incident tt can tke me away ba .. flower pot or wadever jus land on me ... cross the road let car bang ... walk in the rain .. lighting jus strike me ... jus anything ..i really cant tke it !! really cant ! hai`~ ....

*ToTally Hurts !!!!!!!!!!!!!
*you all wont see my real smile or laughter again ... *Totally hurts cause by myself ..

(.!_!.) LoNeR ?? (.!_!.)

hmmm... here i am to update my blog.. well.. it's the best place from now onward i will use this to let out my problem ... really dun wana trouble anyone else anymore... this few week isnt any good week for me yeah ... spiritual attack all over ... my attitude cause so many shyt ... den somehow realise .. indeed i really cant do anything ... i only kay kiang only... in fact everything i do .. it's always cause things to broke .. or destroy ... hai`~ somehow getting more n more useless in tt sense... yes joel said i got alot of talent ... but it's all nth ... i can crap around like shyt .. but wad can i get from it ? nth .. but more trouble to myself.. influence the youngs one to follow my path ... jus a trouble maker ?? i noe myself well my attitude change alot... from bad to good.. now going back again .. in fact worst tt b4..? wad happen to me ? i admit i nope strong enough to resist all the influences... nope strong enough to stop or learn wad i shouldnt learn or do ... i admit... i noe everyone will say my verse.. phil 4:13 ... i noe.. but i jus couldnt get it ... i alrdy somehow neglect God ... i really wana get back wit HIM ... but it jus couldnt get back the feeling where i used to be when was really on fire wit God !! i cant get the feeling back ..i cant feel HIM anymore .. i jus cant ! hai`~ seriously I HATED MY SCH !!!! I HATED MY CLASS !!! my classmate all suck !!! suck TOTALLY !!! i hated them i hated them i hated them !!! they suck .. they F**K ! they are BItchs n bastard !!!! F**K OFF MAN ALL OF YOU !!!!! all hypocrite !!! all loser !! HELL YOU ALL GO MAN !!!!!! hai`~ ... f**K .. i was like spread into two part in class... 1-28 .. meaning .. 28 one group.. me own self one group .. cool ? sitting rite at the back alone.. everything alone ... all giving me faces for nth ? showing me all the attitude ? making fun of me ? F**K THEM MAN !!! somemore throw away my social studies textbooks 3 n 4 !! wad the F**K !! how would they feel if they're me getting all this treatment ? hai`~ i really dun wana stay in tt sch anymore.. i noe few months time i will leave... now endure endure n endure.. but how much more can i tke ? hai`~ it's damn hurting k the whole day ... tears was like going to drop anytime.. but i hav to force everything back !! hai`~ it's so hurts ! hai`~ end here ...LoNeR ?? dun you think ???????..............
*LoNeR^KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) SaD (.!_!.)

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(.!_!.) wad would be my choice?? (.!_!.)

choice ? wad would i choose ???

hmmm..... seriously ... if i hav a choice to make to do anything i wan.. wad would i make ?


hmmm.... seriously.. i will choose to die..... to leave this world forever n ever... it's nope life is bad... its jus tt i'm nope suppose to be born at the first place .... !! when i born .. its seem tt i cause my dad relationship to broke up ... tt's wad i heard ... cause of me.. my mum left me n my dad.. cos of me.. i hurts my dad... i show him attidude at times... shouted at him ... i hurts my frens feelings... my teacher feelings... i hurts so many ppl !!! why am i born ? why ! hai `~~ it's nope my relationship causing me like this... it's my life !! my life is always sux !! n i noe for sure it will be always !! hai`~ ... forever problems kids ! causing so many things...


hai`~ ... jus hurts me whenever you all wan la... i alrdy used to it ... !! go ahead k ... jus hurts me.. so tt i can be force to kill myself.. force me plz !!!!!!!!! i really dun wana live anymore !!!!! live sux totally !!!!!!! hai`~ ... dun wana tok le... end here .... Cya..

(.!_!.) ½ year (.!_!.)

hmmm... long didnt post le.... yeah... actually nth to post oso la... well.. life is good.. yeah... relationship is GOOD !!! hahahah... bluack.. well been through thin n thick for half year le... so happy !! hahaha.. jus over here wana say.. i love you lotz... n i really misses ya ... hmmm tke good care k ... anything must tell me k ... yup yup.. God bless ... bluack ... LOVE YOU LOTZ !!!!
*KhiN* (.!_!.) ...

(.!_!.) .... (.!_!.)

hmm.. dunno why .. jus feel like droping something here... hmmm... really dunno wad's my feeling now.. it's a confusing mixture of feeling in me now.. sigh.. i really dunno wad's happening ... i jus feel like crying.. yet i couldnt.. i really dunno why... sigh.. wad's happening to me .. my life ? sigh ... life wit God it's like bery blank now... i jus wasnt tt fire wit God le.. i dunno why ... so many things happen ... my bad character seems to be coming back to me .. sigh .. can someone tell me wad to do !? i really dunno where i'm heading to ... it's like walking in a dark tunnel witout light n witout knowing when will i see the exit n the light ... studies was like going down the drain .. sigh ... i dunno wad's wrong wit me ... hai`~ ... Lord ... i'm really sorry for everything ..i really dunno wad's wrong wit me.. my walk wit you i noe is getting further n further away ... i jus dun hav the strength to catch up le... i really bery tired le .. Lord i'm sorry... really bery sorry ... i really dunno wad to do ... FATHER.. could you jus appear to me n tell me wad to do .. i really feeling bery lost.. relationship life ... is going well yeah.. maybe abit hurts from wad has happened... but i dun blamed her at all k .. i mean i alrdy expected this to happen ... well it did happen eventually like i expected... hai~... hope she will get over it ba.. i'm nope hurts cos of tt k .. i'm hurts to see her living in guilt n sadness... i really dun wana see her this way ...really dun .. it's makes me more hurts .. i really dunno wad to do ... i jus feeling bery depressed now.. maybe forever i will be.. i dunno.. jus felt bery lost,... i really dun wana to hav any break in this relationship .. i really giving my everything to this relationship ..i dun wana hold back anything... i really love her lotz ! really i do .. i really do !! i really misses her lotz !! arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........ !! dun wana write le... FATHER Lord .. all i wana say was.. i'm sorry for everything.. really sorry .. i may hav to tke a break for some time ba.. really sorry... i really dunno wad else to do .. i jus felt bery sorry ... sorry ...



dear.. no matter wad has happened. .. doesnt matter k .. i may be hurts... but i neber blamed ya k .. really i dun.. cos i love ya too much le !! i really do love ya lotz !!! i really dun wana leave you... really couldnt bear to do so .. i'm sorry if you hav to hear tt i'm hurts.. but really i dun blamed ya k .. cheer up k.. n forget bout wad has happened.. put it to past k ... dun think too much ... i wont leave you cos of this de k ... it's jus a small matter... yeah.. i love you lotz !!! really i misses ya... i'm sorry ...

(.!_!.) sick ... (.!_!.)

hmmm.. here i am to post yeah.. bluack.. well this few days or this week.. isnt a good week for me ba.. maybe ? some problems in relationship .. but it's all over le yeah ... well.. hope she made the rite decision yeah... dun wana force her decide anything le.. i will let her do it her way yeah.. n wait till the answer comes.. well i alrdy noe the answer yeah... well thankzZ lotz for choosing me ... i really dunno wad to say .. but i noe tt since you choosen me.. i wont let ya down k .. i will giv ya everything out to you ... n love ya lotz !!! well i ask so many questions n keep telling ya stuff.. i'm sorry k ... i jus felt insecure... i'm sorry ... i really fear tt you will leave me.. really i fear... sorry ... but now i think through le.. i shouldnt decide for ya or keep bother ya of all this.. i should trust ya n let ya do yer way k ... really sorry. .. well feeling bery sick now.. having fever now.. headache.. stomach problem.. feel like vomiting.. n whole body bery weak .. n feeling cold althought the weather is so hot.. sigh.. well.. i really dunno wad to say le... all i wana say is tt.. i really really love you lotz !!! n i really dun wana to lose ya... i really dun ... i miss ya lotz !!! n i'm sorry if you hav to go through all this problems tt i causes.. i'm sorry .. really... k le i end here le ... tke good care k.. God bless ya alwayz... Love ya lotz !!! sorry :(

(.!_!.) wad i learnt (.!_!.)

hmmm.... this week been a tiring week for me man .. herps... had alot of spiritual attack from the devil.. making me so tired n nearly giving up ... but in the end i didnt.. all thankzZ to ppl .. pushing me up yeah.. thankzZ lotz.. well.. went for the meeting on thursday n friday .. well learnt quite alot la... herps.. it's a confirm tt we gonna go for a breakthrough amen ! no matter wad.. yeah.. so guys... jus reaching out to yer frens.. loves one.. neighbour ... relative... yeah ! b4 tt.. pray for protection for yerself... den pray for open hearts to the ppl you reaching out ... n oso pray tt God will bless you wit Words n wisdom to tok to them ... n pray tt they will be touched n willing to receive JESUS as their living GOD amen !! hahaha... well .... remenber k .. the five steps ... first... hear the words of God n hav 2 speak it . get the faith to say it !! ... second ... a line yerself, yer life , make plans to fulfill wad you hav been told ... 3th immeditate action !!! 4th ...make sure you remenber ... 5th accomplish the wod of God !!! k GUYS REMENBER K !!! n oso .. put on full armour of God k ... ephes 6:10-11,13 .... to resist n fight against the devil k !! amen ! n do things wit great faith.. n no doubt k through CHRIST !! cos wit God we can do everything ... possible n impossible things. . yeah !! hahaha.. bluack ... well so happy ... i got my prophesy from God ... gonna be a missionary for nation !!! yeah ! wit the 5 steps along .. n do it proud n to the fullest man ! yeah !! amen ! ... well haha.. tt's bout it ... guys remeneber to pray hard k .. especially now k !! amen !!! k la end here ... tke care guys .. God bless everyone !!! amen !!

(.!_!.) 5th months le .... (.!_!.)

hmmm... today is our fifth months le... haha.. so happy !!! arr... bluack ... herps... hmmm... my life ? hmm.. this week wasnt a good week for me ba... having spiritual welfare the whole week ... spiritually bery tired now.. sigh ... i really dunno who really i'm now.. i was so confuse n lost ... sigh ... FATHER .. i really need YOU now... come touched me again n refresh me wit yer HOLY SPIRIT .. come n tok to me .... tell me YOU are always there for me ... i really felt being left out .. i dunno why ... i'm sorry if i really neglect ya ... i really sorry ... reallly hope you will forgiv me ... sigh... LORD plzZ come touch me again .. plzZ o plzZ ... sigh .. i really bery tired ... really bery ... LORD plzZ bless me wit YOUR strenght can ? i really need it lotz... the devil has been attacking me... i really bery tired... really feel like leaving church .. to tke a break.. i really dunno wad to do ... really i dun.. LORD .. plzZ guide me n tell me wad to do ... i really need YOUR help !! really !!! sigh .....


hmmm...well really thankzZ that special someone tt's in my life now.. really thankzZ lotz for being there... push me up ... giv mi hope when i was giving up .. really thankzZ .. witout you .. i really dunno wad will happen to me .. really dunno .. thankzZ for always be there for me ... i really appreciate it ! really i do ... herps... well . we been through thin n thick for the past 5 months le... really thankzZ for everything in my life... i really love you lotz... n i really dun wan to lose you ... i willing to do anything jus to save n keeping this relationship going ... really i will .... i'm sorry if i kept made yer worried so much .. really sorry .. i didnt mean to ... sigh.. really sorry ... at times i really misses ya lotz... i dunno why .. i jus misses ya... sigh. .. i really hope i wont lose you .. really hope tt you will be in my life forever ... really !! sigh ... dear ... really thankzZ lotz for being in my life .. really.. together we endure everything k .. n help each other in spiritual n physical k ? i'm glad you had grown up le.. continue to be on fire wit GOD k .. tell me everything k .. so i will help you through ... yeah... really thankzZ lotz....

k la.. i end here le .... really love you lotzZ !!!! tke care k ... God bless ..... miss you .....
*KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) Long long ago... (.!_!.)

hmmm... it's been long wasnt it ... herps... well... i'm back wooo.. hahaha... hmm ... let's see... life is getting better n better... hahaha ... hmmm.. my spiritual life ? hmmm.... growing deeper n stronger le in spirit... yeah.. kinda cool wasnt it ... hahah... well i miss out alot le ever since i started being a christian ... yeah... finally think through le... hahaha.. all thankzZ to Jon's words. .. n oso the book i had been reading .. "the bondage breaker" .. learn alot of things bout life n myself.. yeah.. really needed a totally change yeah... cant follow other ppl foot step le... needed be the one taking the first step out of my position yeah....hmmm... well ... needed get to noe more bout God n HIS Words... n oso grow deeper in faith n most importantly ....wait for the best timing to spread Gospel to my dad ! yeah !! and oso most important things... needed go for a breakthrough in growth !!! amen !! hahaha... bluack ... well bout my love life... hmmm .... my feelings for her is getting stronger n stronger each day .. n tend to misses her lots n lots !! sigh... but well ... it may be going through alot of tough times... n i may be suffering ... but well.. it's all worth it k ... to her...* dun worry k ... it may seem suffering .. but i dun felt it at all k ... i dunno why .. dun ask me... jus dun felt suffered at all .... yuper du .... * well really bery glad tt i had you in my life ya... life changed alot seriously !! physically n spiritually... yeah... really thankzZ lotzz to you ... n most importantly ... GOD !!! amen ! hmmm hope "yer" life will be better k ... n really happy for ya tt.. you finally think through le... ni zhang da le !! hahha ... well... dun worry k.. no matter wad .. i will always be here n there helping ya .. n supporting ya for wad you gonna be doing k !! jus let me noe wadever you need k ... dun need to hide from me.. cos you noe you couldnt oso ... hee.. bluack ... k la.. i end here le ... bluack .. really thankzZ all of ya yeah.. tke care k ... God bless everyone !!
last but nope least ...

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*KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) 4 MoNths ... (.!_!.)

hmmm.. it's been long ever since i last posted rite.. hahaha.. bluack .. no time to post mah.. sorry guys.. bluack ... hmmm life is good yeah ... well.. there is abit hard time n things to endure or suffer... hahaha.. but well..it's still good n nice !!! bluack ... hmmm... think cos of *YOU* ba... tt's why everything became enjoying to me instead of suffered... bluack ... hmmm.. thankzZ for everything yeah ... always there for me ... *YER* CaReS towards me ... *YER* LoVe ....really thankzZ lots. ... hmmm ... tmr our *4th months* le... hee.. so happy ... bluack .. in fact i'm damn happy ever since the day *YOU* came into my life.. hee.. bluack .. thankzZ ... really LoVe *YoU* lotz.... hmmm ... no matter wad may come my way ... no matter how suffer the journey would be ... i will still stay on in the journey ... n stand by *YOU* no matter wad ... be there always for *YOU* whenever *YOU* need someone ... yeah ... when *YOU* are down ..i will be there to cheer *YOU* up ... *YER* feelings is my feelings... you sad ... i sad wit ya.. *YOU* happy.. i happy wit *YOU* .. bluack ... when *YOU* are angry ... i be *YER* punching bag... bluack .. hee.. bluack ... will always lend *YOU* my ear to listen to wad *YOU* wana say ... lend *YOU* my shirt when *YOU* cry .... lend *YOU* my shoulder when *YOU* are tired.. i will do anything or sacrifice anything jus for *YOU* ... for *YOU* alone !! hmmm .. k la i end here le .. bluack ... LoVe*YOU* lotzz..... bluack ... tke good care k... God bless ....
*KhiN* (.!_!.)







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(.!_!.) No MattEr wAd ... LoVe Ya LotzZz (.!_!.)

*~|~*lao shu ai da mi*~|~*

Wo ting jian ni de sheng yin
You zhong te bie de gan jue
Rang wo bu duan xiang bu gan zai wang ji ni
Wo ji de you yi ge ren
Yong yuan liu zai wo xin zhong
Na pa zhi neng gou zhe yang de xiang ni

Ru guo zhen de you yi tian
Ai qing li xiang hui shi xian
Wo hui jia bei nu li hao hao dui ni yong yuan bu gai bian
Bu guan lu you duo me yuan
Yi ding hui rang ta shi xian
Wo hui qing qing zai ni er bian dui ni shuo (Dui ni shuo)

Wo ai ni Ai zhe ni
Jiu xiang lao shu ai da mi
Bu guan you duo shao feng yu
wo dou hui yi ran pei zhe ni
Wo xiang ni Xiang zhe ni
Bu guan you duo me de ku
Zhi yao neng rang ni kai xin
wo shen me dou yuan yi
Zhe yang ai ni

Wo ting jian ni de sheng yin
You zhong te bie de gan jue
Rang wo bu duan xiang bu gan zai wang ji ni
Wo ji de you yi ge ren
Yong yuan liu zai wo xin zhong
Na pa zhi neng gou zhe yang de xiang ni

Ru guo zhen de you yi tian
Ai qing li xiang hui shi xian
Wo hui jia bei nu li hao hao dui ni yong yuan bu gai bian
Bu guan lu you duo me yuan
Yi ding hui rang ta shi xian
Wo hui qing qing zai ni er bian dui ni shuo (Dui ni shuo)

Wo ai ni Ai zhe ni
Jiu xiang lao shu ai da mi
Bu guan you duo shao feng yu
wo dou hui yi ran pei zhe ni
Wo xiang ni Xiang zhe ni
Bu guan you duo me de ku
Zhi yao neng rang ni kai xin
wo shen me dou yuan yi
Zhe yang ai ni

Wo ai ni Ai zhe ni
Jiu xiang lao shu ai da mi
Bu guan you duo shao feng yu
wo dou hui yi ran pei zhe ni
Wo xiang ni Xiang zhe ni
Bu guan you duo me de ku
Zhi yao neng rang ni kai xin
wo shen me dou yuan yi
Zhe yang ai zhe ni




hmmm ... long neber update le... hmmm.... the song lyrics above... bery meaningful eh ... hee... seriously.. no matter wad may comes... i will still stay by YA.... n no matter how tough or suffered i may be ... as long as YOU are happy in YER life... i dun mind do anything for YOU .. jus for YOU alone .... yeah.....hmmm.... life for me ... i dunno how to say ba... it's like half half in tt sense.... nope bery happy.. n nope bery sad.. haha... so still alrite yeah .... hahaha... bluack ... hmmm... k la i end here le.... tke care everyone.... God bless too .. hahaha ...



LoVe YA LotzZz ... Always Be by YOU whenever YOU need me n no matter wad may comes our way ... will protect YOU from anything.... yeah.... :D hee.... MisS YA ... muackzZ ...
*KhiN*(.!_!.)

(.!_!.) I MiSs Ya (.!_!.)

herps... sigh... dunno how to start this post oso ... herps... well firstly.. isnt in a good mood now.. herps... something happen between me n my dad ba... i dun wana tok bout it ba.. yeah... herps.. sigh... hmmm ...seriously... i miss "YoU" lotzzzZZZZzzzzz ......arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............... hmmmm... well... our path maybe going through tough time now... we seldom get to tok to each other much .... but seriously... in this post... in my heart ...in my mind ...in my everything .... seriously i think bout it hard again n again le.... i seriously... DUN wana leave YoU n end this relationship .... i wana go through all this wit Ya ... and i will stay on wit YoU FOREVER..... YoU may ask why i can choose someone better n no need to suffer all this.... but seriously... to me i dun care ! n i really dun mind .. suffering all this ... all i noe is tt.. as long as i hav YoU by my side .... the LoVes we hav for each other ... i really dun care anything bout the suffering... all i noe is tt i'm really happy tt YoU are wit me ... n we together enduring n will stay on and overcome everything..... i really hope this may happen ba.. whereby we both together endure n overcome all this n stay on by each other FOREVER .. till the day we fall on ground n gone in this world !! serious. .i really wan tt !! reason is become .... I LOVE YoU LOTzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz .... more than anything else ... xcept God ..... nth can stop me , change my mind .... and wadever i say here... i mean it n i wont regret wad i typed here !!! i seriously wont !!! well our path is tough i noe... but i dun care... i'm praying hard bout it to end soon ... n i hav FAITH it will ... jus endure abit yeah ? well... if YoU cannot tke all this thingy ... n YoU wana leave me ... well jus go ahead k ...let me noe k ...dun be scare tt wad will i feel ... seriously i rather YoU tell me seriously if YoU wana end this relationship .. i dun wan YoU to force yerself to LoVe me..YoU get wad i mean i dun wana n i wont force YoU yeah ....*main qiang shi mei you xing fu de.... so yeah.. jus let me noe k.... i noe tt i wont let YoU go ... but if YoU are really suffering hard cos of this... i will force myself to let YoU go de... yeah..... well last but nope least..... really ThAnKzZ Lotzzzzzzz for being there for me all this while !! really ThAnKzZ lotzzzzzzzzzzzzz.................k la..i end here le.... YoU must tke good care k ... drink more water yeah .... God bless YoU !!!


MiSsEs YoU LotzzZZzzzzzz


LoVe Ya Always N FoReVeR................ *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) ThInKiNg Of yA(.!_!.)

WhEn I'm DoWn N All AloNe
WhEn NoThInG SeEmS tO MaTtEr
WhEn I LoEe My HoPe
WhEn I'm SaD N CoNfUsEd

WhEn It All GeTs TuRnEd ArOuNd N RoUnD
I CaN't SeEm tO ReAcH FoR sOliD GrOuNd
WhEn EvErYtHiNg I'vE BeLiEvEd In SeEmS
UnTrUe
All I HaV TO dO

Is ThInK Of ¤YoU¤
I ThInK Of ¤YoU¤ N It's GoNe
LiKE ¤YoU¤ ChAsE AwAy ThE StOrM
MaKiNg It All OkaY
I ThInK Of ¤YoU¤
I ThInK Of ¤YoU¤ N I'm StROnG
And I NoE I CaN gO On
ItS LiKe ¤YoU¤ SeT Me FrEe
WhEn LiFe GeTs ThE BeSt Of Me
I JuS ThInK Of ¤YoU¤

NoW I NoE WaD LoVe MeAnS
And WaDeVeR LiFe MaY HoLd FoR Me
ThRu ThE FiRe
ThRu ThE RaIn I BeLiEvE

CoS ThErEs NtH I CaNt BeAr
KnOwInG ThAt ¤YoU¤ Will Be ThErE
If I Fall I WoN'T BrEaK
ThRu It All I'll MaKe It ThRoUgH
CoS All I HaV tO dO

And WhEn I ThInK I'm All AlOnE
I CaN't SeE ThE Way tO gO
LoSt In ThE RaIn Of My OwN TeArS
To WaSh AwAy ThE PaIn And fEaR

FoR ThE GoOd TiMeS N ThE BaD TiMeS
I JuS ThInK Of ¤YoU¤
CoS ¤YoU¤ NoE ¤YoU¤ GeT ThE BeSt Of Me
I JuS ThInK Of ¤YoU¤...


Well ... our path maybe going through tough time now... but no matter wad may come against us n no matter how tough it can be ... JuS remenber this ... that i wont giv up on ¤YoU¤ ... and i willing to go through all this ... n LoVe ¤YoU¤ WiT All My HeArT N SoUl ..... TmR OuR ThIrd MonTh Le .... Hee ..... Yeah !!! hmmm ... thankzZ lotz for everything .. thing you say to me ... really thankzZ lotz ... :D .... hope our relationship will last till eternity yeah !! n Yi Qi Endure everything that come our way k !! *KhiN* LoVe ¤Ya¤ Always N FoReVeR ....... lotzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

*KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) coming (.!_!.)

hmm.. it's been long rite.. hahaha.. herps.... well well well.. having exam la.. so didnt bother to update hee.. herps... hmmm... life.. still smooth going yeah .. hmm... it's been two month plus le... yeah ? herps... hee... hmm.. thankzZ for everything yeah .. hmmm... Lord really thankzZ for all yer blessing to me.. n you really help me go through many tough time n stuff.. really thankzZ you LorD !! hmmm.... jus pray tt.. everyone will be bless... n will be protected by JeSuS blood yeah ... bad things go far far away .. n good things always come hahahah... hmmm .... k la.. i end here le ba... herps... hee... tke care ... God bless... *KhiN* (.!_!.)




5 more days...... LoVe ya always....

(.!_!.) sentosa? (.!_!.)

hmmm... hi guyz. .. long time didnt update my blog le.. hahaha.. "busy" ba.. hee... herps... well.. hmmm life... still nice n smooth going yeah... yesterday went to sentosa... wit dom , david n samuel ... hahaha... went there to swim .. so funny a small fish keep following samuel hahahaha.... in the end the four of us build tunnel hahah ... herps... hmmm hahaha... the words tt i crave were still there.... haha.. so nice arrr... herps.. hee.... hmmm... this few days.. answer lots of question ba... yeah... actually i alrdy noe wad's the problem.. jus tt i dun wana say out.. anyway .. hope nth happen yeah ? i tke every single words tt you said to me yeah :D .... herps... well had my eng paper today.... hmmm ...think still alrite ba... yeah ... hee.... hmmm.. think i end here ba... may God bless everyone ... exam ; life n everything yeah ... TKe care... God bless.... *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) hmmm (.!_!.)

hmm. kkzZ here to update my blog again ... herps... hmmm... life is moving smoothly ba... yeah....althought there is some hard time here n there... but still enjoying the way of life.. hee... herps... hmmm... how's today ? hmmm ... nope bad ba... hee... but jus abit down ba... cos of something to do wit my mum .... happen to get hold of her no. ... thankzZ to Wei xian ... really hav to thankZz him ... cos the document is confidental .. but he still help me ... think he noe my situation ba... yeah .. thankzZ lotz bout it bro .... yeah... hmmm ... should i call her(*my mum) ?? ... still thinking bout it ... sigh.... i mean is like.... i miss her n wana see her again ... but at the same time i dun wan .. cos i hated her ... sigh... wad should i do.. can someone tells me wad to do ?? herps... well i nope really bother by it ba... cos it's been like it's been 12 years le lo ... hai`~ ... i doubt she remenber having Tan PoH khiN as a son .... she got a new family le ba... heard few years back ... yeah .. gotten two children oso ... yeah.... hmmmm ..... hope tt she is living well in her new family yeah ... n here... i wish her a bery happy mother day .... herps.... sigh .... God bless her n everyone .... Tke care.... *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) sigh (.!_!.)

hmmm.. nth to do now.. couldnt sleep oso ... dunno why... sigh ... hmmm keep having a sense tt something isnt rite wit "You" ... but i dunno wad ... hai`~ ... i jus felt bery sad all of a sudden ... i really dunno why .... sigh sigh sigh... arrrrrrrrrr........... hmmm .. really hope tt everything is alrite yeah ?? will pray hard bout it yup .... seriously.. everything jus tell me k .... i really wana noe everything tt is going on in yer life n stuff.... cos i dun wana hav another "same" problems .... "you will noe wad i mean by "same" problem yeah...i told ya quite few time le... "you" can ask me lo if ya really dunno ... yup yup.... hai`~ ... really hope you will alrite ba... i noe life is bery stressful n nope going the way you wanted it to be ... i noe... but you cant do anything.. but jus endure .. yeah ... pray for strength oso k ..... yeah ..i will keep ya in prayer oso de yeah .. and serious.. jus tell me everything.. i wana share yer woe/problems/troubles everything wit "ya" ... really ..i dun mind ... and you dun hav to mind either.. serious... yeah.... hai`~ ... dun wana write anymore le... hai`~ ... seriously... really hope nth will happen ... n hope ya will be alrite .... yeah .... sigh .... tke care .... may God bless ya .... LoVe Ya always n Forever no matter wad .... *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) 2 Months (.!_!.)

hmmm... let see... i noe ya for bout 4 months two weeks n 3 days......... hee...and on steady for 2 months le ................ arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..... hee... so happy... herps... well .. for the past two months ... really thankzZ for being there for me... hee.... and it's like really enjoyed myself lotz... yeah ... hahaha... so cool n interesting...nope say i wana quarrel or fight la... but it's really amazing man .. we didnt quarrel or fight... nope even unhappy nope even abit lo .... hee... really damn happy everythings !!! really thankzZ for this two months... even thought my life may be tought.. but wit ya around... every problem seem gone / solve... really thankzZ for being there :D... life really brighten up even since the day we started.... yeah :D hee... herps... still got a long way to go yeah :D .. towards eternity rite ?... hee.... but really hope .. it will maintain lidat till the end..yeah :D ... hee.... hmmmm ... end here le... yeah .... tke care k ... God bless everyone .... yup yup ..... last but nope least... Love ya forever !!! hee... *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) ToNg HuA (.!_!.)

ToNg HuA

wang le you duo jiu
zai mei ting dao ni
dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi
wo xiang le hen jiu
wo kai shi huang le
shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me

#ni ku zhao dui wo shuo
tong hua li du shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le

*wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Repeat # and *

wo yao bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

wo hui bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

yi qi xie wo men de jie ju


hmmm... a bery nice song there.... wooo~~... hmmm.. it' been long i last update my blog rite ?? hahaha... hmmm ... life still alrite ba... hmmm... sorry nope really myself now... couldnt write much ... sorry guys will update somedays later k ... sorry .. tke care k ...God bless everyone ....
*KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) huh (.!_!.)

hmmm... it's been long wasnt it... tt i post my blog.. hahaha... kkzZ .... here i am yeah ?? ... herps... life ? hmm ... nope bad ? hahaha ... kkzZ ... life is smooth going yeah ... at time may be abit up n down ..but well still alrite yeah ... hahah .... yup yup .. really enjoyed myself yeah .... well ... dunno wad to write sia... herps... jus wana say tt ... wont let go or giv up no matter how tough the road is ! herps.. hee .... LoVe ya Lotzz .... tke care ... God bless *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) Woo (.!_!.)

hmmm ... it's been long since my last post le hor... hahaha... hmmm quite busy recently yeah ... hmm. .. well life is quite smooth going yeah ... jus abit sad .. cos of my fren ... yeah ... he passed away ... hai`` .. well dun tok bout it... yeah .. well ....Father Lord...i jus thankz you for the day ... Lord i jus pray for those who is currently sick in my family or anyone else... tt You will tke away all the evil spirit tt is harming them Lord...i jus pray for Healing in Your mighty name Lord ... Lord i jus pray for my bro jonathan ... tt you will show mercy in him ... Lord giv him lesses work lo ... giv him some break time .. to rest n relax ... Lord i jus pray you will guide him through his life ... n Lord i jus pray tt you will bless him n protect wit wit Your blood Lord....Lord i jus pray n commit everything into Your hand Lord.... I thank You n i Praise You ...In Jesus mighty name ... Amen !! ... well We (Youth) needed pray for all the leader in leader ... so haha... for sure i will choose jon mah ... herps... well well well ... end here yeah ... hope everyone out there tt yer all life will be better ... n will be bless by Lord Jesus ... yeah !! ... amen .... tke care... God bless .... *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) PrAy (.!_!.)

Father Lord ... here i come b4 You n pray Lord... firstly.. i jus thank you 4 the day ... you really bless me in my life ... you sent someone into my life n changed everything in my life Lord.... really thankzZ You lotzZ .... Father Lord i jus pray tt ... you will cover "someone" wit yer blood lo ... protect her ...bless her Lord... help her through in anything tt come her way lo ... Father Lord i jus pray tt you will show yer mercy in her... n really bless her as much as you can Lord ... it's seem too overboard to ask 4 this.. But Lord in Yer eyes ... this is nth ....but to me is something i really wish you will bless us ...Lord ... really Lord ..i jus really wish n hope tt you will Bless us .... and Father Lord.. i jus pray tt you wil forgiv the sins we hav.. Lord... the untruth words tt we hav to make Lord... Lord You are ... the only one tt noe our situation we are going through Lord... Father Lord i jus pray tt.. as my grandmother is suffering in some cancer .. i jus pray in yer mighty name Lord... tt you will cast out the demon spirit tt is attacking her ... i jus speak healing in Yer mighty name Lord tt... you will protect her wit yer blood n cast the demon out of her Lord.... Lord i jus pray for the Youth tt.. you will continue to bless us wit more new comers Lord... and more ppl will be saved n gorify Yer name Lord. .. i jus pray tt ... the youth in Bc will bring in more ppl to keep n let the flame burning more n more stronger n going for eternally Lord... Lord i jus pray tt you will guide us through our life ... n protect each n everyone n cover us wit Yer blood lo ...protect us from the demon .. n everything tt comes our way n stop us from walking wit You Lord.... Lord i jus pray tt you will forgive my sins tt i hav Lord... Lord i jus praise You n i ThankzZ Ya lotzZzzz .... in Jesus MIGHTY name i pray ..... AMEN!!

(.!_!.) LoVe Ya (.!_!.)

well here to update my blog after so long ... hee... well ... use this post to say to someone ... hmmm .. well .. really thankzZ 4 being there 4 me everytime...yeah ... hmmm ... really misses the time we together sia. .. hmmm 2 more days .. hee... endured !! yeah !! .... hee....well ... seriously...i alrdy treated ya as my last n only Lao Po... you should noe wad i mean yeah ? *to tt person ..... hmmm... well absense make the heart grow stronger yeah ...it's true yeah ... tt's wad i'm now towards you yeah ... hmmm... feeling growing stronger n deeper each day ... hmmm .. tke care k ... God bless .......hmmm ... well.........................





I LoVe YoU LotZzzzZZZzzZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZ FoReVeR !!!!!

*KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) huh? (.!_!.)

hmm... my life ar ??? hmmmm quite smooth ba .. yeah.... hmmm ... well jus hope tt you will be alrite k .... hai~... alway fall sick ... how can lidat.... herps.... hmmm cheer up as well k... it's helps in recovering yer sickness ... really noe.. hee... hmmm ... good luck 4 everything oso k .... tke care everyone..God bless ... *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) Woke up (.!_!.)

hmm.... nth to do so come to update my blog ...hee... well life is bery smooth going yeah ... having lots of fun , joy n really enjoyed myself on every sun ... hee... tt's a reason why is tt so... wana noe.. ask me personally yeah... haha... hmmm bout my previous post on class matter... well kind of reflected on myself.. n oso fren toking to me bout it... kinda waken up suddenly... and willing to stay strong 4 the last year yeah ... and most of all ... pray to God tt He will bless me wit the strong i needed ... yeah AMen !! ... haah ... hmmm well guy tke care k .. God bless ya all !!!!! .... smilzzzzzzzzzz... *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) Hai (.!_!.)

hmm... it's been quite few days ever since my last post le...hmmm... well life.... somehow good n bad ba.... bad cos of my class thingy...dun wana tok bout it here... hmmm .... well wad i do ?? they wana be lidat i oso cannot do anything.. maybe like i say ... fated to be "......" who noes rite ? ... well nvm forget bout it...life goes on yeah :D ... hmmm . haha.. weekend coming... so happy hahaha.... hmmm got a new fone ... k700i ... hahah... so happy ... but sad didnt went into national level 4 bball... hai`~ ... but nvm hope tt next year our sch can make it yeah !! ... k la end here ....everyone tke care k .. God bless .... *KhiN* (.!_!.)

(.!_!.) Wad (.!_!.)

hmmm ... well feeling abit errrr..... dun wana tok bout it .... well dun wana care much bout wad tt person has tag my board wit those shit.... well wad to do .... there bound to be this kind of ppl.. whereby going ppl blog n tag things like this ... they jus too free le ba... well who wana care ? it doesnt hurts me much ... for i noe God will love me 4 whoever i am ... so wad if i'm a loner... ? or anything else... God still love me so... yeah go ahead and scold God i noe you will ... but dun regret when the time come whereby the earth is suffering.... well dun wana say so much in detail ... dun think you understand anything bout it .... cos if you do .. you wont hav done tt ... yup yup... hmmm well..if you nope happy wit me... go ahead and come find me FACE to FACE !!! why must be a coward ? dare to type... but dun dare to admit who you are... waste yer time... waste yer strenght typing... why ? jus come straight in front of me and shout those you wana say bout me...i will open my ear n listen ..!!! hmmm.. well dun tok bout tt le... hmm.. life is great !!! yeah !!... sorry for tt person tt tag my board trying to pull me down.. haha... i wont lo... i'm much much more stronger den b4 le... hahaha ... well tke care guys.... God bless .... *KhiN* (.!_!.)